That’s what I’ve been starting out every day with. Maybe today we’ll get a baby. Then I spend all day checking my phone every half hour… or less. I turn the ringer off while I’m at work, but it’s still set to beep if I get a message, so checking it all the time really isn’t necessary. But I check anyway. Just in case. The way they do it here (small county) is that whenever they have a kid come in, they send out a recorded message to everyone on “the list” with basic information about the child. And then I have an hour to call in and say I’m interested, if I want the baby. And then they choose from the people who called back. So checking my phone every half hour really isn’t *too* unreasonable. Or so I tell myself.
My heart is aching for this. I sound like a broken record, but I’m so tired of waiting. I want to have a baby sleeping in the cradle. I want to have my baby to hold and rock to sleep. I want to be sleep deprived because I have to wake up feed my baby every two hours. I even want to deal with visits and the uncertainty of whether or not my baby will stay with me forever. Just so long as I have my baby.
Maybe tomorrow… ?