Checking in…

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Wow.  It has been forever and a day since I have posted anything.  I haven’t been keeping up with other people’s blogs either.  I’m being a very bad blogger.

Major life occurrences since my last post:

1) Our two girls left.  On Mother’s day, no less.  They went to live with family, which is good.  We got to meet the family, and we really liked them, which is good.  We knew it was going to be a short-term placement.  But I’m way too used to hoping for the impossible, and so of course I had some hope that the family thing wouldn’t work out, and that maybe the girls would stay with us.  So I ended up sad and disappointed.

2) I was laid off from my job.  That I absolutely loved… well, except for all the paperwork and the high amounts of stress…  I don’t know the reason I was picked to be laid off, but I’m guessing infertility might have had something to do with it, since it kinda-sorta had an impact on my job performance.  I actually started at that job the same month we started at the fertility clinic.  I’m not sure what the plan is now.  I’m technically looking for another job, but I’m not really sure if I want another one like the one I had.  I might try to find something a little different, with less paperwork and less stress.  And then, since I’ll be so much more relaxed, I’ll get pregnant… ha, ha.

We’re back on the list for taking another placement.  I’m planning to wait for a baby this time.  I loved having the girls, but I still feel so sad and bitter whenever I see a woman with a baby.  I need to have my turn.

Anyway… since I have LOTS of free time these days, I’m going to try to actually get caught up on blog stuff…



  1. I’m sorry you were sad and disappointed. I hope you find a job that you like!

  2. I’ve been thinking of you! I’m sorry the situation with the girls didn’t work out. Even though you expected it to be short-term, it must have still been bittersweet.

    Too bad about your job, but you seem to have a great attitude about it. I hope you find the perfect job for you. And hope you get a baby placement soon–one that stays forever.

  3. I’m glad to see you blogging again, but sad to see that the girls have left {and on Mother’s day! Double-whammy} and that you lost your job. I had been keeping up with you as best as I could on FB, but frankly, I suck at FB as much as I suck at updating my own blog. You still have my number so if you ever want to call & chat, you can. I’m here all day. And I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that your dream shall come true VERY soon. I love you E!

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